DEVOTIONAL

It Would have Been Better….

Posted  by mui

I can’t believe I’m here. I followed what God told me to do. Through the prism of my flawed sacrifice, I presented my mustard seed faith and prayed that it would be acceptable. I took The Lord at His Word, with just enough light for the next step.
Was it not just yesterday that I, filled with the excitement of a promise from above, confidently headed out of Egypt; knowing that each stride was taking me closer to my destiny? How blessed I felt back then. So loved and cherished, believing God had finally seen my tears and affliction. With my chest puffed out, an ill gesture in retrospect, I boldly told off my oppressors; for they no longer had power over me. My BIG God had moved mightily on my behalf and showed my adversary who really was in charge.
That was then.
Now, all I see is the raging waters of the Red Sea ahead. If I proceed, I will drown. I turn to the left and to the right. There are enormous mountains too steep for me to climb. Closing in on me is the enemy I thought I had left behind.
What do I do?!
Do I try to swim across the Red Sea even though I cannot swim? Should I attempt the steep climb that I am not qualified nor equipped to conquer? Or maybe I should turn around and fight my enemy with all the might I have, even though they are more powerful than I. What should I do?
My heart is racing and my palms are sweaty. Time is running out and all I can do is cry out like a child. Words fail me and my prayers are nothing but tears – tears of confusion, disbelief, disappointment and fear, as a gnawing impression begins to set in. My Daddy let me down.
I feel like the biggest loser in the world; for I left Egypt singing and dancing, proclaiming my freedom to all who would hear.
“Lord, how could you do this to me? It would have been better for me if you had just left me in my misery than to bring me out into the open to face public defeat.”
As I curl up into a ball and try to nurse my aching soul, a strange sense of peace floods my spirit. Out of sheer mercy, grace and love, my Daddy whispers into my ear; words so sweet and sure spoken by His servant centuries ago. “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (Exodus 14:13, 14)